Allyship is not mere “tolerance”.

Or, “sorry no cookies for you, insincere able-person.”

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I paid $26 to renew this domain so I may as well use it to vent my spleen (because why else do we blog?).

My ire this morning was drawn to this article. The tl;dr version is “Professor condescend to a student asking for accommodations so hard she scares the student from ever contacting her again. She takes this as a victory for some reason.”

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Together Wendy we can live with the sadness

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Recently I visited some of my mother’s family, they live out of state. She has a cousin who’s had hepatitis for years, and more recently became HIV+. She told me how she rarely gets to see people, and leave the house. She told me about how she loves to read. When she reads she gets to escape for a few hours. I can say I know how she feels.

I want to send her my completed novel. If it would make her happy for a few hours it would be worth it. It would all be worth it. I want to get it to her before it’s too late for both of us.

I can feel a pinching, grinding in my lower back. The area is tender to touch, and radiates pain outwards. I’m afraid the disc has totally decayed and I’m suffering from true stenosis. That the bare bones are now sitting on nerves. I wonder if I need the surgery they’re so reluctant to give. I see my spine doctor on Friday. Along with all my other on-going health problems.

I’m so tired.

I have a lessened workload this quarter as I have two online courses. I am going to y to finish posting “The Ring and the Bridle” in the next few months. I want it finished for whatever happens next.

I have my pay-out from my contribution to “Strange California”. With it I’d like to hire an editor, but I don’t even know where to start. The manuscript is about 125,000 words. I don’t want to low ball, but I do have a set limit of spending as my only income is my student stipend. I’m not asking for a MFA, but I would like to see a resume.

If you’re looking for work feel free to contact me at my email: dmgrnstrn@gmail.com and we can discuss pricing and a contract.

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“I would court you, if you would allow it.”

“No, no, no! I don’t!” Eddie was surprised to find herself stamping her foot but she could not emphasize her refusal enough. “You can forget it! So! Just! Fuck off!”

The kelpie narrowed his eyes. “This courtship is in lieu of far greater punishment for your trespass on my waters and the gouging of my eye.”

He ran his fingers beneath his opaque right eye.

“I know it! But I won’t have it! Just leave me alone!I’m sorry you’re angry but I wasn’t picking a fight with you. I never meant to hurt you either! Please! I just wanted to protect my brother’s life!”

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